Log #1: 23rd August 2024
I hate relying on people. They keep empty promises, promises that they will forget about a week later. That’s why I prefer working alone. I’m in control. I set up my own pace. No dead weight to slow me down. However, working alone also means that failure is solely on you. The pain of knowing failure is caused solely by you is a pain one cannot forget easily. Not to mention, if the expectation for one is high, the pain of failure is even severe. I felt that today. I failed to achieve my objective. Two months, just like that… all for nothing. Maybe there is a lesson to be learnt there, but I don’t care. In hindsight, I should have planned my execution better. Oh well, I’m still young so there’s still time to learn, right? Right.
On another note, I’ve started reading manga. The one I’m currently reading is ‘Claymore.’ I’m not going to write a short description here, if you’re really interested then you should search it up on your own. I will say this, it’s a fairly old manga so you may not find the artstyle pleasing compared to today’s offerings. The artstyle of ‘Claymore’ reminds me a lot of Yoshitaka Amano, best known for his work on Final Fantasy(I think). At first I didn’t like it, the bodies are slender, frail-looking and (to my eye, at least) disproportionate. However, it really grew on me. If I had to describe it, I would say it’s avant garde. Looking back at some of the manga panels, I am astonished at how detailed and beautiful the characters are. The manga really made me want to learn to draw, it’s that impactful. Perhaps I will, one day.